Work SUCKS

I really am not happy at all.  My employers act like my parents.  Oh your hurt you need to go to our doctor.  What kind of crap is that?  Then I get in trouble for telling them I don't want to go, it was disrespectful.  Where is my respect?  I'm so sick of this stuff.  I went to their doctor and he didn't send me home.  They didn't get what they wanted so they wrote me up.  How is this crap right?  Someone please tell me.  I'm in pain, they put me on a job they know is going to break my back, then they get pissed because I'm staying at work.

Not Good, Not Good At All

I've been avoiding updating this blog for a reason.  The reason is if I write it down it is somehow more real and I don't want to face it yet.  I figured I owed it to myself to update this for the future.  My back is killing me.  I can't sleep, I can't move, I can't sit, I can't do anything without pain.  I've been out of pain killers for a while and I don't want to call the doctors office because again, if I say it out loud it is somehow more true.

Ok so I think the biggest problem is my job.  My boss's think it is a good idea for me to be bending over for 8-9 hours a day.  I asked why and their answer was "well you don't have any restrictions do you?"  I have the distinct feeling they are trying to get rid of me.  I don't know how long I wll be able to take this abuse.  Why are they being total pains?  If they don't let up soon I'm going to have to quit.  What is the world coming to when someone that actually is doing their job gets mistreated so? 

Ok on to home life.  Not so good on that front either.  My family isn't understanding that I'm still in pain.  I don't know what to say to get them to understand.  Guess I'm done for now before I start crying again.

Cold Weather

Well we are in the middle of a cold spell here.  It hasn't been above 25 since Christmas and it is supposed to get colder.  I've really started to notice the stiffness and pain in my back.  Really wish I could get my medicine filled, but have to wait until I go to work tomorrow.  The pharmacy is on company property and it is too far to drive to fill my meds.  I'm thinking I should get a really good heating pad. 

Home Office Safety

Island Life is getting together with Underwriters Laboratories to promote safety in the home office and giving away a $200 gift card to Best Buy! Make sure you drop by the blog and follow the instructions to enter and you’ll be in the running to win too!


They have several great tips to keep your Home Office Safe.  Wouldn't hurt if you won $200 either.  Some of the childproofing tips all back injury survivors should also follow.  It wouldn't be good to have surgery and then trip over cords.

How I'm doing

Well recently I got an email asking how I'm doing since I hadn't updated my blog lately.  The answer is I don't really know.  I went back to work for 2 days and was in so much pain I wondered if the surgery has done any good.  On the other hand I have no pain down my leg anymore which is awesome.  I went through 6 weeks of physical therapy and did really well with it.  I'm not sure why work is so hard.  It could be the getting up and down from the floor, or maybe I'm just so totally out of shape it isn't going well. 

I did go to the doctor yesterday.  Another disappointment.  He looked at my X-rays and wasn't too positive this time.  He is no longer sure my bones will fuse.  It seems they are stalling out.  He said it was possible the bones would start growing and fuse without any problem.  He also said it was possible that they never fuse and I have to have another surgery to replace hardware when it breaks and add more bone material to try to force it to fuse.  Oh and he did say it looks like I am standing straighter now.

We are still not alone in the world.  I've just been depressed lately and didn't want to depress everyone else with my worries, but I am worried.  I don't think I will fuse, but I know I will eventually be ok.  I don't regret my choices.  I still feel better than I have in years and will always be grateful for what my doctor has given me.  I was at a point that I wouldn't even go to the grocery store.  Now I go and don't even think about how long I'll be able to shop.

Beds

I haven't touched on this subject yet but it is really important.  I probably wouldn't have thought to include it if I hadn't run across  MommyMandy's Sealy Giveaway.  She is giving away a Sealy Posturepedic Innerspring Signature 11 Series, you can check it out here:  SEALY.  She is giving away one in any size you need, check out the blog to enter.  Anyway a good bed is always helpful when you have back problems.  My personal bed is not really good for the back, but sometimes you have to make due.  If you can replace your matress's I really suggest you do so.  It is much cheaper than the $91,000 surgery I had.  If you can't go all out and replace your mattress you can try the bed toppers they sell in almost any dept. type store.    I know if you are not sleeping enough it will inhibit your ability to heal.  The muscles won't fully relax and your body will have to work harder to try to circulate blood to the injured area.